moments that matter most

take time to stop and notice the needs of others around you. let life slow down so you can enjoy the sweet moments that last forever.

new perspective

everything happens for a reason. i whole heartedly believe in that simple statement. things happen in our lives when we have no idea why. and we may not know for years. all experiences are to teach us a lesson. we cannot progress in this life if we are not learning. learning is hard. it takes humility. sometimes that is the lesson. most of the time that's the lesson that i need to learn. sometimes the lessons we learn are not from something we have done, but what others have done. and sometimes we are on the negative receiving end. those are the worst. but they can be the best because of the great discoveries and self-reflection that occurs during that experience.

i have recently learned to be true to my words, values, and behavior around people. i want to be consistent. i don't want people to feel like i am two-faced. i want to be kind. i want to be a listening ear for those in need.

another lesson i've learned, i can't just rely on my own experiences. i need to turn to greater sources of wisdom. i am so grateful for friends that have inspired, supported, encouraged, and reassured me of my value and potential recently. another reason why everything happens for a reason. i tend to be put in very difficult and emotionally painful situations, but i always find that one or a couple sweet souls that lift me up and i feel that i can confide my problems with.

i love life. i don't know that i can actually say i love everything about life right now. i am carless. i am not dating anyone. i want to be. i am doing awful in my generals classes. i am not getting a ton of sleep. i have recently had my confidence torn down. but i can say that i love learning.

i am grateful for my Savior and my Heavenly Father. i know that they are aware of me and what i am going through. they know how i feel. exactly how i feel. i need to turn to them and the scriptures. no more putting it off. i need to do it. the word of God solves everything!

my summer

remember how i'm awful at updating this.

i've been home from my la internship for a month. i learned so much. and not necessarily at my internship, but in the process of accepting the position and seeing the after math of my decision. this summer has been about me learning how to listen to the promptings of the Holy Ghost. I am so grateful that the Lord knows what's best for me. Seussical, seemed like a perfect opportunity, but i didn't feel right about it. LA internship, seemed very unrealistic, but it felt right. it was very scary turning down the role in Seussical and then accepting the position to go to LA. but looking back, i needed to learn to trust the Lord. and having it be a couple months after those decisions, i still don't know the real reason for what i did, but i know that there was a purpose. and i may not see it for a while.

one great thing about being in LA was being with one of my best friends, dominic pierson! i hadn't seen him in 6 years! we were the best of friends at governor's school in high school. we have shared many tears and many laughs. and many mormon questions. i love him! i am so proud of him! i have complete respect and trust that the Lord is mindful of his heart and what he is capable of. sweetest thing!

drivin to rehearsal this morning and saw this :)

this is similar to seinfeld's humor

wow sarah

someone put that kid to bed!

this is as wide as i go. i can't go any wider.

i brought an onion to school. i thought it was an apple

INTERNSHIP!

this last week has been an insane roller coaster! you may have sensed my frustration this summer, but basically, this summer has not turned out how i had hoped. last weekend was epic for me in that i realized that something needed to happen in my life. and i had no idea what i needed to do. i had been studying the scriptures with girls from church and we have been reading about a prophet named Nephi who was commanded by the Lord to follow his father, Lehi, and take their family across the ocean. even before that, Nephi was commanded to retrieve an ancient record from the king. because of his faith in the will of the Lord, he was able to accomplish the great tasks and him and his family were blessed. i have felt like Nephi this past week because i have received promptings to act and do something about my non-progressing life.

to sum it up, i am interning in LA with Kindel Gagan starting THURSDAY! ah!

i will going around LA county informing restaurant owners that their employees need to be certified in food handling. i just finished a training call with my supervisor and the other 3 girls (who all from BYU) and it is very similar to missionary work that i did in San Diego. i am soooo excited!

little tender mercy story:
i turned in my resume 2 fridays ago, 1 week after the notice went out in my department. i hadn't heard back from the company by wed so on thurs i signed up to audition for my fair lady at the west valley hale saturday, july 9. it was later on thurs that i received an email thursday that all of the positions were filled by that first week. so i was glad that i went ahead and signed up for an audition time. then on friday, i got a call from the internship offering me a position because a girl dropped out. WOW! the other girls that have been chosen for a while were headed there sunday (yesterday) but she said that i could get there just asap.
i was kinda sad that since i was doing the internship that i couldn't do my fair lady. but I decided to do it just for fun and to get audition experience. i had remembered that they said to check the site to find the audition form. at the end of the form it listed the days i would need to be available for rehearsals and shows.
REHEARSALS START AUG 20!! i'd get back from my internship and bekah's wedding AUG 14! woohoo!
another long story short - i made it into MY FAIR LADY!! i'm soo excited to do a show and so grateful that the Lord has a hold of my life. he is aware of me!

it's so interesting to see my life as it was last week and where i am now. the weekend i was feeling awful, i posted this scripture as my status
"Draw near unto me and I will draw near unto you; seek me diligently and ye shall find me; ask, and ye shall receive; knock, and it shall be opened unto you." D&C 88:63
it is so true. i have had many doors opened for me and i am happy. it has been a bit of a struggle temporarily closing my life in provo, but i know that i will be blessed.

and remember when i said that i feel like i have to impress people? i feel that coming to LA helped me overcome that fear. i am not doing an advertising internship, i left my job, and i had to turn over 3 projects that i was leading in the adlab. all things that people have given be some crap about. but i kinda don't care. i know that this opportunity is where i need to be. it's not ideal for the advertising world, but i know that i will gain something from it.