why be sad?

i have realized that i have so much to be thankful for. i have a family that really cares about me. we aren't the type to run to each other to give a huge hug, we don't say "i love you" all the time, we don't share deep thoughts with each other, but it is known that we love each because of our honesty (maybe too much sometimes), concern for each other and decisions made, and we enjoy each others' company (we might not seem like that, but we do). plus, we support each other in as much as we can in whatever each other is involved in. and we are very thoughtful when it comes to gifts, for an occasion or at random.

i thank Heavenly Father for my talents. i can't keep up with all the things He wants me to do. i sometime want to do nothing because trying to juggle everything is hard work. btw - juggling is something that i want to learn.

i have a clear mind. i feel that i make semi logic decisions. i know how to treat people especially when i noticed that others don't treat them well. i know when someone needs service. i know when there is an awkward situation. i feel i know proper behavior etiquette and how to socialize. i know not to wear a mini skirt and heels in december. i know that rolling backpacks are a no no. i know that bump its are BLEH!

i feel that i am intelligent, well rounded, mature, easy to get along with, independent, always looking for laughter, and strong in the gospel.

i am especially grateful for the inspiring people that have been placed in my life. i don't know how i got so lucky. i didn't know that there were solid people out in this world until recently. thank you! i am also grateful that i have come to this realization because i think i've been blind to this blessing for a long time. i love people who know who they are, who have experienced hardships so they can give me advice :) , who love serving others, who don't care what other people think, who know how to talk to someone (stranger or best friend), who have a positive attitude, who support and encourage others towards excellence, who are genuine, who have a clear mind, who are logical, who are intelligent, who take risks, who dream big and go for it, who listen to their heart, who are complimentive, who have beautiful spirits, who are enthusiastic, who are calm, who are mature, who love new things, who are accepting, who are spirit directed because they have placed themselves in life where God wants them because He knew that I need(ed) these people in my life. what a blessing. 

taking all my blessing, this year, i want to build off them so that i can discover more things that i am grateful for. so here are somethings i want to work on ...

a. be more secure in life 
financially, spiritually, in education, with my goals, and in who i am. i want to be certain of who i am, what i believe, what i am part of, what i represent, who i represent, my calling in life, what friends i have or don't have, what are my surroundings, and what i am going to do to be better.
b. trust
in other people and in myself. i want to follow through with goals i set and not flake out on myself.
c. i want to learn 
guitar, drums, sociology, scriptures (which includes the Bible even though i cringe thinking about it), people, my friends, stock market, car loans, french, world cultures, psychology, chess, juggling, music, advertising, and the list will keep growing. this world has so much in it an i don't even know 1 trillionth of it. i need to follow the prophets counsel. so this means that i'll have to read. my favorite thing. (with slight sarcasm)
d. progress 
i need to move away from the past, live in the now, and work towards the future. 
i have a lot of regrets. and i can't anymore. i need to move on. it is ok to recall struggles, missed opportunities, and heart breaks, but what good is it if i dwell on what i could have done, and not thinking about the great opportunities that await me. use bad memories to aid future decisions. as mentioned, i have so much to be thankful for. "where much is given, much is required." i am going to have to work HARD in order to live up to my potential. i am still figuring out my potential. but mainly, i need to accept what has happened and look forward to the better things in this world. i have experienced many hardships. but it only means that there is something greater waiting for me. and i am so excited! i know that God loves me. i know that he knows my heart. i know that he knows what is best for me. i guess another thing for me to learn is patience and diligence. 


thank you for reading. please leave thoughts, comments, and/or goals that you would like to work on this year. and we can help each other :)