trust in the Lord

finally getting around to writing this overwhelming experience and hoping that there's a little lesson for all of us to learn from it.

if you know me, you'll know my terrible luck with cars in the last 2 years.

i had an experience yesterday (last sunday) that shook my emotions and nerves with the most frightening experience i've ever had.

i was headed up north to kaysville, utah for a close friend's mission farewell. i left my home at 8am to arrive at 9am. it snowed the night before so the morning snow on the ground was semi light/semi frozen. i decided to take my pathfinder because of the 4 wheel drive instead of my parent's van. the four wheel drive felt kinda funny, but maybe cause it hadn't been used in a while..? i don't know.

but i get onto bangerter highway just going 30 mph making sure i stay on semi solid ground. i tried to move out of some slippery patches, but failed and started to slide! and i'm not talking just a little swerve, but my whole car starts turning and all of a sudden i am moving with traffic but facing backwards.. my heart has stopped just thinking about it. i was freaking out not knowing how to stop or face forward. thankfully only a couple cars were passing and were able to dodge me. i wanted them to stop to help me, but obviously they couldn't. i did the one thing i knew about sliding is that you don't put your foot on the brake and just let go of your wheel. pretty much just let everything go and trust that it'll straighten out on its own. i didn't know it was true or would work with my situation. but i did it. and i stopped shortly after and facing kinda backwards at an angle, still facing against traffic.

i just paused for 30 seconds taking in what just happened and imagined the worse thing that could have happened. i was soo gratueful there weren't more cars traveling on the road and that i finally stopped.

the story doesn't end.

i slowly get moving again on bangerter, enter I-15, and get to about 11400 south exit, riding right next to an SUV, tried to dodge a slippery spot, failed and again, started to turn!! i was in even more shock because now i was on a freakin interstate!!! my car turned left and i was in deja vous facing against traffic. the next couple seconds become a blur and i suddenly found myself stopped and facing with traffic this time. i looked in my rear view mirror and thankfully noticed no one coming up the rear. i turn on my hazards and just took a deep breath in thanking my lucky stars. you can bet i was shaking. a lot.

i don't know how i got so lucky to not even hit anyone on the road, to hit a median, or even flip. i could have been severely injured or even lost my life. i was saved. by the grace of God i was saved. i have a greater purpose and work to do on this earth. and even greater reason to accomplish it.

lesson learned - just let go. let go of the wheel. don't hit the breaks. don't try to take control. just trust that everything with straighten out. God has control. He made you. He knows what your life path is. let go and put your trust in Him. also, make sure your vehicle is fit for the course. daily check up. fix errors immediately. and keep it clean of negative substances. i'm sure you can make those connections.

additionally, love others. and express your love. that's the only way you will then feel loved in return. and it's because it's the God's love you will be feeling in return as you serve and love others. it's the greatest love to receive and feel. you, me, and everyone deserves to be loved. God's love for all is eternal. we need to allow ourselves to find it and feel it. do it before it's too late. it's getting harder to live in this chaotic world. appreciate what you have and express your gratitude to those on earth and those above.